May 3 - Cancer Support Group

In the effort to "do everything they are telling me", I visit the Cancer Support Center in Pleasant Hill.  Wonderful place, wonderful people.  I attend a session for newly-diagnosed breast cancer patients which feels kinda weird because everyone there is well past 60.  Sweet people, but I feel really out of place.  Most of the stories are about late stage cancer; chemo, radiation, etc.  We go around the circle and I share my experience with the group.  I am in such a different place than most of these women.  I am only seeing this as a brief "speed bump" in my life...while they seem way too serious about the whole thing.  A presenter arrives for the last hour who gives a talk about positive visualization and meditation and how they can help during treatment.  I liked that part.  God bless the people who work there - I feel they really provide a safe, caring environment for those who need additional support during cancer, but it is just not for me.  I have so many family members and friends who I can confide in; I am lucky.  I felt so sad and heavy after leaving the center, like I now had my fellow cancer-sufferer worries on my back as well.  I decided not to go back.